Tuesday, January 26, 2010

An Ugly Monster of Boredom, Loneliness and Anxiety

Hmmm...is this semester over yet? I'm having a really hard time adjusting. You see, last semester I was a busy, busy bee. Sometimes I didn't mind it and it kept me doing things, but sometimes I hated it when I had no free time to just chill out and relax or see my family and friends. This semester is a different story.

Seeing as last semester I barely had any free time, this time I decided to not work as much to focus on classes and have tons of time to hang with my boy and family. Well, when the people I want to see are all busy + all my homework is done + it is too gloomy and cold outside to do anything = boredom and loneliness galore!

Being lonely is the worst feeling in the world. It eats me alive. I love having time to myself...for a few hours. Then once a few hours passes and everyone is busy and there's nothing to do...a harmless case of boredom turns itself into the ugly monster of lonelyanxiety. I had to drive home today to see my parents just because I couldn't take it anymore. This isn't a part of myself I like. I don't like crying and having my stomach form into knots simply because I can't let my mind get too bored.

Anyone else have problems like this? Any suggestions for when I have nothing to do and on top of that I'm feeling lazy? Thanks guys. :)

1 comment:

  1. Argh, boredom and loneliness and anxiety are definitely not fun things. I hate how it always works out that when you're free, everyone else is busy, and then you just end up sitting around doing absolutely nothing. Not fun! I guess when I'm bored I just entertain myself with movies, books, TV, the computer, anything really. Or if you want to be productive haha, I guess you could go on a run or something!


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