How Much of Your Life...?

How much of your life is spent being with the people you love most? Spending time with people who care about you or doing something you genuinely love and that makes you happy?

If you're like me, not a whole lot.

Why do we let crappy jobs, ridiculous homework assignments, and bad people take up so much of our time?

I find myself wondering this and thinking it is time for a change. A quote I love is "If you hate something, change it." Easier said than done.

Now, I'm not saying quit school because that is one of those things you just have to get through or let go of a job before you find something else... don't become a poor bum on me! But if you are unhappy with something and it is taking over your life, look into doing something about it. It sure is about time I did.

Inside all of us...

This post comes inspired from the movie trailer for "Where the Wild Things Are". While I am slightly creeped out every time I see this, the words that came across the screen intrigued me. It went like this...

"Inside all of us is everything we've ever SEEN."

"Inside all of us is everything we've ever DONE."

"Inside all of us is everyone we've ever LOVED."

How true is that?

We are essentially made up of our memories. While some memories fade, most of them are stored within us and make up who we are. It goes to the age old question: would you want to erase memories?

I say no. All of my memories = me. The ones of me sobbing after a traumatic event are equally as important as those of me smiling with joy. Would I be the same person without certain memories? Would I have grown or learned anything? What would be missing from my personality or my heart? Would you be willing to give up something that could be essential to your change and growth?

So think about all the things you've done or seen or the people you've loved. They make you who you are.

Hello lovely readers!

So, I am so very sorry about the lack of postings lately. I have been busy, busy, busy... I will continue to be busy but I am going to start making more of an effort to post at least every other day.

So if I do this for you....wanna do me a favor? :)

Tell someone you love about my blog and send them the link. Have them follow me or bookmark it in their favorite sites. See if they'll comment and send my blog to someone else. I am quickly learning that NO ONE clicks on this thing! That makes me sad! Please prove me wrong.

Much love,

Lauren

Seeing the Future

Have you ever had a weird feeling something was going to happen...and then it did?

I have these every once in a while. I guess you could call them premonitions. I wish they were about something cool or exciting, but usually they are very ordinary. For example, I had two this week.

One was about my boyfriend chosing Olive Garden for our dinner date and one was about the girl I was babysitting last night having a stomachache. Silly, right?

What do these premonitions mean? They can have serious consequences in movies like "The Final Destination". (Thank goodness mine are trivial and not about death!) Do you think we are sometimes supposed to see part of our future to prepare for it?

What about all of you, do you ever have these premonitions? What do you call them? Tell me all about it. :)

Why are Quiet People Weird?

Okay, okay, I don't really hate all people. :P But is being shy and an introvert really all that bad?

While watching the first episode of this season's "America's Next Top Model", I discovered something I know quite well. That shy or quiet girls are considered "weird". One girl on the show who didn't talk as much as the other girls is constantly questioned by the others as to "what her problem is" or "why doesn't she talk as much?" or "why is she so weird?". Being often quiet myself, I was annoyed.

When did society deem introverts less worthy than extroverts? Aren't people who talk too much more annoying that those who like to think rather than say all their thoughts out loud?

I sometimes prefer silence. I will gladly tell you I hate small talk. When I go get my nails done, I don't really want to talk meaninglessly to the nail technician. Maybe you'll see it as unfriendly, but I see it as real. Sometimes I just prefer to relax and not have to worry about talking to someone I don't really care to talk to. Perhaps it is also my love for words that I don't like to waste them. I don't know but I wish I wasn't thought of as weird because I prefer silence or don't know what to say or just want to listen.

If I know you and like you, I'll talk. I talk to you all in my blog. Sometimes if I am quiet it doesn't mean I don't like you, it just means I would rather listen. So next time, if you are blessed with the gift of gab, don't judge those who aren't.

When you are Loved, You are Complete.

Warning: This may turn into a mushy mess of a love post. If you cannot stomach cute coupleness and me being in love, stop reading now...

When you are loved, you are complete. At least I am.

I am so grateful for great parents and lovely friends. But, I do realize my parents and family are pretty much programmed to love and take care of me. And my friends, some of them know my crazy side, but not all do. I have best friends that know the real me and love me anyway... but for the most part, friends come and go. The person I am the most grateful and never want to take for granted is my boyfriend.

Not only does he know my silly side that makes no sense, he knows the scary me of panic attacks and nervousness that rarely makes sense, and he knows every bad and good part of me. He sees me at my worst and at my best. And he loves me through all of that. He doesn't have to. He doesn't have to constantly remind me or tell me that I'm beautiful. I just realized lately how lucky I am that we shower each other with love almost constantly. I wake up everyday not wanting to lose it and loving every minute of it. Even when I have the worst day ever and everything in my life is falling apart, I can sit and think that I have this love and everything is okay. When I have love, nothing can be too bad.

I sincerely hope that everyone has or will someday have the kind of person that loves you and doesn't have to. That constantly lets you know how special you are. Because I think that everyone deserves that.

Blog book!

This is so cool... you can now make your blog entries into a book! I hope this link works and you can check out an example of my mine. I am not going to pay to do it now, but I really like the idea. Perhaps one day...

A blog book!

What I'm Lovin' Today!

The fact I never get sick of watching an episode of "Scrubs" over and over again. I will love that show forever. Anyone else a fan?

Here's a really cool rendition of Outkast's "Hey Ya" by Ted on "Scrubs".

Feeling better today...

Here's just some good lyrics. Cat Stevens - If you want to Sing out.

Well
if you want to sing out
sing out.
And if you want to be free
be free.
'Cause there's a million things to be.
You know that there are.
And if you want to live high
live high.
And if you want to live low
live low.
'Cause there's a million ways to go.
You know that there are.

You can do what you want.
The opportunity's on.
And if you find a new way

you can do it today.
You can make it all true.
And you can make it undo
you see.
Ah
it's easy.
Ah
you only need to know.

Well
if you want to say yes
say yes.
And if you want to say no
say no.
Cause there's a million ways to go.
You know that there are.
And if you want to be me
be me.
And if you want to be you
be you.
Cause there's a million things to do.
You know that there are.

Having a Down Day.

Do you ever just get the feeling that your life is full of obligations and you spend the majority of your days counting down the hours, wanting to be somewhere else?

I've found myself doing so lately.

Being a college student, I have a job that doesn't really interest me but just generally pays the bills and also babysits on the side. And yes, being a college student that means class. While I haven't started yet (due to teacher strikes, yikes!) I am already stressed out thinking about it. I have never liked school from Kindergarten onward. I still hate it. I know, I know... I should be excited to learn and grow but I am definitely not excited about taking classes that are required and spending money to sit in class and listen to a teacher drone on about things I care very little about.

And yes, by the time I am excited to be off work, done with babysitting, and have a break from class and homework... I am simply too tired. I still see my friends and family, but it is strained. More than a few times, instead of spending quality time with my boyfriend, I fall asleep. Instead of going out with friends, I have to go to bed early instead.

I wish I could fix this. I wish I could just learn to be more optimistic and enjoy my free time as well as my obligations, but it is constantly a struggle for me. Some days are okay, some are great, some are just plain annoying. So today, I apologize, it is a day I just need to complain. And only hope that my future is bright with a job I enjoy and more time to be happy with how my time is spent.