The start of moving...

As I started packing things up today I thought of this....

I think moving on (literally or figuratively) is always bittersweet.

What do you think?

Think about it...

Today I'll leave you with some wise advice on a cute picture....

[I'm beginning to think that maybe it's not just how much you love someone. Maybe what matters is who you are when you're with them.]

My Favorite Disney Movie

Yes, I was one of those little kids obsessed with Disney movies. Maybe those are what sparked my love for all types of movies. I loved the songs, the romance, the goofy parts...everything about them. My favorite one growing up though was Pocahontas. I think it was one of those Disney movies that not many people liked or remember. Yet, it was one I would watch over and over. Being an only child, I often had to learn to entertain myself. So I would go in my backyard and pretend I was Pocahontas. Sure, it is a little embarrassing to admit now...but whatever. :) I loved all those songs, especially the one about "the colors of the wind". Here are the lyrics:

You think I'm just an ignorant savage
And you've been so many places; I guess it must be so
But still I cannot see, if the savage one is me
How can there be so much that you don't know?
You don't know...

You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name.

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle in a hoop that never ends

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or let the eagle tell you were he's been
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

How high will a sycamore grow?
If you cut it down then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or copper skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain
We need to paint with all the colors of the wind

You can own the earth and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colors of the wind

I love that. Singing it just made me feel so free. There was just something about that movie that made me feel that way....happy and free. Isn't that the way a movie is supposed to make you feel? So tell me...what was your favorite Disney moving growing up?

Old Poetry..

Today I will share with you some poems I found on my home computer. These were written I believe in 2006 or around the time I was in high school. It made me want to keep writing poetry. Enjoy!
the rain taps gently
umbrellas open quickly as flowers embrace the sweet pitter patter
a lonely child sits staring
her dreams fall away like the rain against her windowpane
a girl dances outside
feeling the rain hit her face like a cool burst
her happiness is felt
by the strangers who pass
a man cries softly for the tears are disguised by the constant downpour
lightning flashes
another soul cries out
thunder roars
as your voice screams
desperate for living
clouds evaporate and sun appears
awake

--

where does it go
the things we think and feel but never say
do they wither away
or sit stirring in our minds
screaming to be opened
from the files of our mind

where does it go
broken hearts and failed friendships
long after they're healed
why do they make you cry
long after they've happened
why can't they disappear

where does it go
the sun shining after a desperate winter
bright smiles in hopeful arms
troubled eyes that are no more
don't cry darling
these wonderful days will return

souls broken and hearts mending
where does it go
the catastrophes we feel
we hope we'll never know

My Soft Spot: Dogs

I think everyone has something they have a soft spot for. That they love to see and can't get enough of. For some people, it could be kids. Kids are often adorable, but my soft spot is for dogs. :) Ever since I was young, I've always loved dogs. My best friend and I would have these silly competitions over how many dogs we knew, make dog books filled with pictures, and scour books for information. At the time, we both wanted to be Vets because of our love of dogs. Eventually, that faded away...I am becoming a writer and my friend is becoming a nurse, but we never really got rid of our obsession. Every time I see a cute dog I almost always say "aww" and resist the urge to pet it and let it lick my face. I love their happiness, their different characters and personalities, and just how cute they are. I don't think I'll ever be quite as fond of any other animal.

So tell me, what animal or thing is your soft spot?

This post is in honor of my dog that I love so much, Hannah, who turns 11 on Saturday. She is such a sweetheart and still acts like my little puppy.

Airplanes by B.o.B. and Hayley Williams of Paramore

Lovin' this song right now!

"Now That I Can See You..."

Do you ever have moments where you just really don't understand people? I have them all the time. It seems like I am always having friend issues lately. I guess because it is that time in everyone's life that you discover who your true friends are and which ones may have been fake all along. A friend of mine has decided she hates me now, won't talk to me, and is playing immature games.

We've known each other for like 10+ years and I thought we were best friends. Sure, we've both changed a great deal and have our differences, but I never really thought too much about them. It just makes me sad when friends do this. When they are so willing to forget all the vacations spent together, fun nights, and advice given. When all of a sudden they are willing to throw away a long friendship over a petty fight. Actually I'm not even sure what happened to be honest. She was mad at me for something that I apologized for several times....yet this still goes on.

I'm learning how to let go better and realize which friends are good for me and which ones aren't, but it is still hard to feel like years of friendship meant nothing to the other person.

Which leads me to finish the Dashboard Confessional song that is the title of this entry..."...I don't think you're worth a second glance."

Fill in the Blank...

1. The first thing I do in the morning is turn off my alarm, go to the bathroom, and grab some vitamins and breakfast.

2. Every night before bed I usually read or watch TV unless I'm super, super tired.

3. My favorite thing to do when I'm having a bad day is talk to good friends who make me laugh.

4. Something that makes me cringe is the classic: nails on a chalkboard.

5. Social situations make me usually awkward. I am pretty shy at first with people or say weird things and I get nervous before meeting new people. But with good friends, it is always a blast.

6. I like to collect money from other countries, though I haven't gotten anything in a while.

7. Weekends are for sleeping in and staying up late, spending time with my boy & friends, and unfortunately work on sundays.

Concerts!

So I saw Drake in concert last night. I might not seem like a girl that would go to a rap concert like that, but it just shows you that I am surprising! ;) To be honest, I only know a few of his songs, but he was coming to the concert venue right next to my college and lawn seats were only like $10. So I decided to go with two of my good guy friends. It turned out to be really fun and I'm so glad I went! I really enjoy all kinds of music and I love concerts.

Here is a list of the concerts I've been to (that I can remember off the top of my head and in no particular order...)

1. My first concert ever was O-Town! Remember them?
2. Jack Johnson
3. Kate Nash
4. Relient K (A bunch of times and met them once!)
5. Other Christian bands at festivals, such as Switchfoot and TobyMac
6. Jason Mraz
7. Drake
8. Paramore
9. Jimmy Eat World, Plain White T's, Mutemath, Coheed and Cambria
10. All American Rejects
11. Dashboard Confessional
1. I know there are more but my mind is blank... but these are the more recent ones. :)

What have been your favorite concerts?

Go Pink!

My friend Hector is walking in the 3 day for the Cure and needs donations. He is far from his goal and needs your help! His mom had cancer 7 years ago and it is now coming back. Please donate to save great women like his mother. Thanks everyone! Anything is greatly appreciated!

Change is good...and scary.

I came across this article on CollegeCandy.com about change and graduating college. Luckily I am not graduating until December and don't really have to worry too much about what I am doing after, yet. But still, people are always bugging me about what I plan to do after college and what job I will have.

I don't plan on doing Grad school since I'd have to pay for it myself. I actually recently found an online program that is something I wanted to major in for undergrad, so maybe one day I can do that to get my Masters, just not now. So I will be going out in the job hunt. It is definitely scary, but I think I have the right plan. People keep asking me specifically what I want to do...but I think it is a good thing that I am open to more than one specific job. I am not picky about what I'll be starting out as. I figure I can do any job I want as long as I love it and I'm doing some sort of writing.

So luckily, I don't have to worry too much about that type of change right now but another change is looming. I officially move out of my apartment and back in with my parents the weekend of May 21. I hope I'm not boring you with posts about this...but blogging about the positive things are helping me stay positive about it and not miss this apartment. So here's my favorite thing to do: a list of positives about my move.

1. Cable...ah I miss cable! Haha! And I get a new much bigger TV for my room.
2. Getting to re-do my room. I bought a new desk...here's a picture.
3. Being next door to a wonderful pool for the summer and next door to my fun neighbors again.
4. Living with people who are neat and clean up after themselves again. Also, being appreciated when I clean things up and do things around the house.
5. Being closer to my job, my boyfriend, most of my friends, etc.
6. Never feeling too lonely because people are around more.

So tell me, friends, what changes are looming in your near future?

Yep...another love post...

I heard this somewhere and can't for the life of me remember what it is from... here is my summary of what I remember. Let me know if it sounds familiar. :)

Real love is when someone loves every part of you, including the parts of you that you don't even like. Those might even be their favorite parts.

I think that is so true though. In my life, one thing I dislike about my appearance is my nose. My boy knows this and he is always kissing my nose...I think to show me that he loves every part of me, just like the quote. I think when you realize this about a significant other you know you've found someone special. This could even go towards friendships...friends accept you for who you are, even for the "crazy" parts of you. So be thankful for those people in your life, that love you for you, even those parts you struggle with.

Fun Link to Check out...

Hello friends! Sorry I was MIA for a couple of days. I've definitely been busy and it has been a good kind of busy. Yesterday was my last day of my internship and I hung out with one of the girls I interned with last night. Very fun. :)

This week I'm going to see Drake in concert (rap isn't really my thing...but tickets were cheap and it is going to be just silly and fun!) and then seeing Jerry Seinfeld do stand-up on Saturday (got tickets for my boy's birthday last month).

I'm still working on a post that I will probably put up tomorrow so for today I will leave you with a funny link.

65 Random Thoughts Everyone Has (Most of them are so true and funny!)

Let me know which ones were your favorite! :)

200th Post...

This is my 200th post! That seems crazy that I've written 200 of these... here is a quote that really struck a chord with me. It is so true and I need to take my own advice. Not sure who said this but here you go...

Let go of people who bring you down and hold on to people that lift you up...even if it's the hardest thing you've ever done, life goes on..

Bittersweet Moments

Don't we always have lots of these in life? Bittersweet moments where you're happy and sad at the same time. I guess that is how I feel about moving out of my apartment where I've flourished for the past eight months and back into my parents house towards the end of May.

Part of me is happy to move back home since I love my parents and it will be nice to not have to worry about utility and food expenses and things like that. I'll be closer to just about everywhere I go except for school. I will be next door to a pool again in the summer. I get to re-decorate my room and change things around and get a new bigger TV.

But I'll definitely miss this apartment. Things have been weird around here for the past month or so...but it is still my place. It has the privacy I always craved. I can come and go as I please and not worry about parents bothering me when I want to be completely alone. And my favorite part of the apartment...my own bathroom! I will definitely miss that!

But time moves on. Moving back in with the parents is what I have to do for now until I graduate and have a real job of my own. Then I can entertain whatever possibility I want. I can stay with them for a while and save more money or I can find someone to live with again. It is a scary time but also an exciting one to feel like the future can be anything I want it to be. And it is definitely a nice feeling knowing that I can live on my own and the time spent living with my parents won't be for a super long time.

Any advice for those of you who lived on their own and had to move back home for a while?

Hooked on Glee!

Okay so I know the whole Glee phase where everyone was talking about it was awhile ago...but I randomly got hooked on it. I've only seen a few episodes here and there and I must say, what a great show! Sometimes the kid's voices annoy me a bit...but for the most part it is entertaining singing and I love the drama of the show.

Any of you hooked on Glee? Here's a video with some of the cast...

I Think About you....

From F#$% Yeah Love

Isn't this sweet?

Have a happy Easter weekend!

Just wanted to wish you all a Happy Easter and a great weekend in this gorgeous weather!

Getting a Little Political

First of all, I don't want to get too political here. I've never been too interested in politics or arguments for that matter. I try to keep my opinions to myself because I don't like to argue or cause any kind of problems. But something I've grown to feel pretty strongly about is gay rights, especially after this season of The Real World: DC.

I'm a huge believer in equality and I know that our world will never be 100% equal, but we all have to want it to be. I was raised a Christian and I still am one, but I was raised to think that being gay is a sin. As I got older and heard people's stories and had friends who were gay, I don't think you can judge so strongly. People love who they are going to love and you can't change something so personal.

It hurts me so much to hear that people's families who were once so strong fall apart because one of the kids loves the same gender. How the parents take everything away from them because of the person they love. Not because this person is a bad influence, has hurt them in any way, or taken steps to destroy the family; but because of something so simple as the person they love.

And hearing the people can't be in the military, can't be married...these basic rights that they say every American has; gays can't do these things legally.

So here is my wish. People can get angry at me and people can say I'm ignorant or don't know much. But I just wish that everything could be equal. Anyone can marry whoever they love. Whoever wants to go into the military can. That all people men or women can make the same wages. That people don't judge based on sexuality, skin color, or gender. Go forth and be kind and it will come back to you in a good way.