Hiatus!

Starting tomorrow I'll be heading down to North Carolina for a little over a week. Sooo, I probably won't be updating this until I get back! Until then, feel free to look over old entries and comment. Or shoot me an e-mail @ lrstewar@oakland.edu!

Thanks guys. <3

Life is Happening While You Plan

"Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans."

I'll admit it, I'm a planner. I have a calendar in my room where I write down my work schedule, my class schedule, who I plan to hang out with that day, when I'm babysitting, Kevin's (my boyfriend) various sport's games... etc. I'd be lost without it and forget everything I'm supposed to do. But then again, I rarely live without plans. I hate to say I'm not very adventurous or the kind of person who does things "by the seat of their pants"... or whatever that silly phrase is. Maybe sometimes I wish I was more like those people. The ones who can just take a trip at a moment's notice and not plan every outfit specifically for each day of the trip. The ones who decide what to do that day just because they want to and just because they can.

Another quote that sticks out in my mind is actually a lyric from the band Death Cab for Cutie.
"Every plan is a tiny prayer to Father Time."

Because isn't that true? We can plan all we want to. We can write down what we're doing every day of the year. But life doesn't often care what you plan. It does what it wants with you and takes you for its own ride.

So here's to stop planning or at least attempting to "fly by the seat of your pants". Keeping your afternoons free and calling up a friend at a moments notice to do whatever you find is entertaining. Stop sending those tiny prayers to Father Time and praying he notices... chances are he doesn't care. So live. :)

What I'm Lovin' Today!

Simply an Inspirational Quote.

"One of the very first things I figured out about life... is that it's better to be a hopeful person than a cynical, grumpy one, because you have to live in the same world either way, and if you're hopeful, you have more fun."

-Barbara Kingsolver

Show Me What I'm Looking For

I find a lot of my inspiration to write from music, from other's words wrapped up in a melody. This particular tune is from a band called Carolina Liar.

They sing over and over... "show me what I'm looking for". I think those are all words we find ourselves singing from time to time.


Sometimes I wonder what I'm supposed to be looking for or supposed to be doing or how I am supposed to be living. Is it what God wants me to do? Is this what I'm meant to be doing? Where I'm supposed to be in life? Which decisions are the right ones? Questions like this shoot through our minds and confuse our skulls and make our hearts beat much too fast. We could sit and sift through our regrets and question our choices and wonder how our lives could turn out... or we could take action. We could ask questions and search for answers.

Sometimes we simply have to scream to our world, show me what I'm looking for. Maybe we'll find what we need and maybe we'll be left confused. But if we never asked and we never searched and thought, how could we ever figure it out? Surely life will throw you a bone and show you what you're looking for eventually...

Your Future Awaits

There are two very different sides to the future and two very different ways of thinking about it.

One is fear and the other is excitement.

Fear.
Our futures are unknown to us. We don't know what we'll be doing in a year from now, a month, a day, even sometimes a few hours. We plan the best we can, but life throws unwanted obstacles our way that mess up these plans. A song by the band Death Cab for Cutie puts it in a way that I love, "Every plan is a tiny prayer to father time". It's true, we plan our days as if things will always work out the way we want them to, but in reality, things change daily. We could fear our future and think of all the bad things that may or may not happen to us. We could all die tomorrow, sure, but that is certainly not the way I would like to go around thinking about my life and the days ahead.

Excitement.
Planning sometimes can bring us joy. I know the excitement I feel while gearing towards a vacation or a holiday... the simply anticipation is sometimes even better than the actual event. Our futures are a clean slate. You can be whoever you want to be, you can have whatever you want, and you can make your future into whatever you're dreaming of. If you choose to live in fear, you're missing out. While unknown events will always strike, causing temporary setbacks and heartbreak, you can relax knowing that tomorrow will surely come and that you can make it better. There's no expectations if you don't make them, there's no worries, there's no fear if you eliminate it. There's just pure joy in thinking that you have a great future and you can make it the one you've always dreamed of.

Check this Blog out!

This is a lovely blog and a beautiful post. Check it out.

Hopefully I'll have some good entries soon. I have been feeling uninspired lately, but I have a feeling that is going to change!

http://greeninkgirl.blogspot.com/2009/04/life-lessons.html

What I'm Lovin' Today!

Hearing the soft pitter patter of rain, cuddled in what feels like a million warm blankets, clutching onto the adventures of a fictional character. I love reading a good book in bed while listening to the rain, feeling as if I have no where to be anytime soon.

What do you love to do when rain keeps you inside?

Boredom and Its Side Effects

Boredom is the thorn in my side. And when I think about it... boredom sure causes a lot of problems.

Boredom causes many bad habits for me as well as many people. First of all, I eat when I'm bored. Boredom eating is generally when I'm not hungry, but I want something to do while I watch TV so I grab some crackers. This causes an annoying stomachache after and I wonder why I succumbed to boredom eating... again.

Another bad habit it causes me is shopping. Often, I'll get so stir crazy around my house I grab my keys and drive up to Target or some other store where I spend money on whatever I can find just so I can have something to do when I get home.

Procrastination is another one. I get bored of my classes and studying so I just don't do my homework. I go on Facebook, google ANYTHING I can think of, watch TV, walk around... anything that doesn't involve me buckling down and just getting my homework or studying done.

It reminds me of a band I was in love with in Middle School and beyond... check out this song that really brings home the point.